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My Friend Commited Suicide [Jul. 15th, 2005|10:42 pm]
[Current Mood |numbnumb]

I can't believe it. My freind Carey Marren comited suicide. Ya know it hurts. He was such a nice guy, always willing to help. But he was different and people in my f***ed up town made fun of him and put him down. He was such a good person, why must all the good people die. I know how he feels though. He and I were alot alike in that aspect of our lives. When I was in High School, I had to put up with the same bullshit. I myself attempted to kill myself. I never saw the people who cared about me, the pain of not really belonging anywhere kept me from seeing the people who loved me. I guess it was the same for him. It really hurts to lose someone you care about. He was such a good friend. I'm hoping that he is in a better place. I am so glad that we got in touch again. At least I know that I wasn't one of the people who forced his hand. I just wish I had known so I could have helped him, I wish I had been able to be there for him, the way no one was ever there for me.
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Quizzy Thingy--Still Awake [Jul. 13th, 2005|08:50 am]
[Current Mood |coldcold]

put an X in the () in the ones you've done.

(x) smoked a cigarette
(x) smoked a cigar
(x) smoked anything else
(x) kissed a member of the same sex
(x) crashed a friend's car
( ) stolen a car

(x) been in love
(x) been dumped
(x) shoplifted
(x) been fired
(x) been in a fist fight

(x) snuck out of parent's house
(x) had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
( ) been arrested
(x) made out with a stranger
( ) gone on a blind date

(x) lied to a friend
( ) had a crush on a teacher
(x) skipped school
( ) slept with a co-worker
( ) seen someone die

(x) had/have a crush on one of your Livejournal friends
(x) been to Canada
( ) been to Mexico
(x) been on a plane
( ) thrown up in a bar

( ) purposely set a part of yourself on fire
(x) eaten Sushi
( ) been snowboarding
(x) met someone BECAUSE of myspace
(x) been moshing at a concert

(x) been in an abusive relationship
(x) taken painkillers
(x) love someone right now
(x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
(x) made a snow angel

(x) had a tea party
(x) flown a kite
(x) built a sand castle
(x) gone puddle jumping
(x) played dress up

(x) jumped into a pile of leaves
(x) gone sledding
(x) cheated while playing a game
(x) been lonely
(x) fallen asleep at work/school

(x) used a fake ID
(x) watched the sun set
( ) felt an earthquake
( ) touched a snake

(x) been tickled
(X) been robbed
( ) robbed someone
(x) been misunderstood
(x) pet a reindeer/goat

(x) won a contest
(x) ran a red light
(x) been suspended from school
(x) had detention
(x) been in a car accident

( ) had braces
(x) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) had deja vu
(x) danced in the moonlight

(x) hated the way you look
(x) hated the way someone else looked
(x) witnessed a crime
( ) pole danced
(x) questioned your heart
(x) cried at school
( ) been obsessed with post-it notes

(x) squished barefoot through the mud
(x) been lost
(x) been to the opposite side of the country
(x) swam in the ocean
(x) felt like dying

(x) cried yourself to sleep
( ) played cops and robbers
(x) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers
(x) sung karaoke
(x) paid for gas with only coins

(x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(x) made prank phone calls
( ) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
(x) caught a snowflake on your tongue
(x) kissed in the rain

(x) written a letter to Santa Claus
(x) been kissed under a mistletoe
(x) watched the sun set with someone you care about
(x) blown bubbles
(x) made a bonfire on the beach

( ) crashed a party
(x) have traveled more than 5 days with a car full of people
(x) gone rollerskating/blading
(x) had a wish come true
( ) humped a monkey
(x) worn pearls
( ) jumped off a bridge
( ) screamed "penis" in class
( ) ate dog food
( ) told a complete stranger you loved them

(x) sang in the shower
(x) have a little black dress
(x) had a dream that you married someone
(x) glued your hand to something

( ) got your tongue stuck to a pole
( ) kissed a fish
(x) worn the opposite sexes clothes
( ) been a cheerleader
(x) sat on a roof top

( ) had sex at a church
(x) screamed at the top of your lungs
( ) done a one-handed cartwheel
(x) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
(x) stayed up all night

( ) didn't take a shower for a week
(x) picked and ate an apple right off the tree
(x) climbed a tree
(x) had a tree house
(x) are scared to watch scary movies alone

(x) believe in ghosts
( ) have more then 30 pairs of shoes
( ) worn a really ugly outfit to school
( ) gone streaking
( ) played ding-dong-ditch

( ) played chicken fight
(x) been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
(x) been told you're hot by a complete stranger
(x) broken a bone
(x) been easily amused

( ) caught a fish then ate it
(x) caught a butterfly
(x) laughed so hard you cried
(x) cried so hard that you laughed

(x) mooned/flashed someone
(x) had someone moon/flash you
(x) cheated on a test
(x) forgotten someone's name

(x) slept naked
( ) French braided someones hair
(x) gone skinny dippin in a river
(x) been kicked out of your house
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This Song fits how I feel... [Apr. 12th, 2005|02:14 am]
[Current Mood |awakeawake]

*Want To Be With You*
by The Moody Blues
from Sur La Mer

When I think of all the things
that we've been through
And the things we've yet to do
I... I start to realize
Without you by my side
The world is such a lonely place
Want to be with you

I remember all the heartaches we have known
The angry nights when we were lonely
The jealousy and pain
Can we remain the same
The world will have to hold it's breath
Want to be with you

I don't need a reason
I don't need to understand
I just want to be
Want to be with you

Only want your love
Only want you by my side
Only want to be
Want to be with you

And when I look back down that road
I see the turnings that we both made
The choice we had to make
The promises we break
Are nothing more than memories
Want to be with you

The jealousy and pain
Can we remain the same
The world will have to hold it's breath
Want to be with you

I don't need a reason
I don't need to understand
I just want to be
Want to be with you

Only want your love
Only want you by my side
Only want to be
Want to be with you
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**Broken** [Mar. 24th, 2005|02:57 am]
[Current Mood |depresseddepressed]

Broken heart upon a bed of glass
Empty thoughts scattered in the grass
Red rose petals pulled apart
The sharp thorns dug into my heart
Broken pieces scattered about
True love is the only doubt
Silver tears fall from black eyes
Painful wounds, painful sighs
Nothing is right, all is sad
Shattered dreams of a long-lost lad
Broken girl, broken dreams
Quiet tears, silent screams.
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Quotes [Mar. 24th, 2005|02:37 am]
[Current Mood |tiredtired]

You live and you breathe and then you die. In between, if you're lucky, you fall in love. Some loves stay forever, others are lost in only a day. but it's still there, underneath all the hurt and pride and years. if it's true love, it's never forgotten. so when someone says they're in love, don't tell them they can't be. don't say they're too young or it's too soon. love knows no age or length of time.love is a feeling deep in your heart that squeezes you tight and you never want to let it go.

"Even if we never talk again after tonight, please remember that i am forever changed by who you are and what you meant to me." ~Chasing Amy

You don't get to choose, you just fall in love. And you get this person who is all wrong and all right at the same time. And you know that you love them so much except sometimes they just drive you completely insane and no one can explain it; and the reason it is so confusing is because it's love. But if love didn't have any challenges, what would be the point? ~Party of 5

"Countless words, countless actions could ever define my feelings for you. True love defies definition."

so let them say it's wrong for me to love you..they could never feel the way that i do when we kiss..when we're close like this..they can't see inside my soul..they can't know the love we know..all they do is waste their time..they can never change my mind..it's what my heart says..that's what i listen to..it's what my heart feels that tells me..tells me what to do..it's what my heart knows..that's the only truth i know is real..all i hear is what my heart says to me.

"My love is like a rose divided into two, the leaves I give to others, but the rose I give to you."

"Even if love is full of thorns, I'd still embrace it for I know that in between those thorns, there is a rose that's worth all the pain."

Seduction. To entice. To lure. To tempt. Seduction, a word that floats through the language on sighs of longing, on vows of vengeance and the perfumed air of mystery. It is a word for dark, moonless nights and sweet passions that sweep one away on a flood of desire and sensation. Literature abounds with the image of the seductress, there to tempt the unwary, to entice the ready and lure innocence away from its gilded cage of virtue.The vixen, the femme fatal are really the seductress at heart and they never seemed to disappear no matter the moral ideals of the time.~Temptress,Violet Goddess

"Love is not written on paper, for paper can be erased. Nor is it etched on stone, for stone can be broken. But it is inscribed on a heart, and there it shall remain forever"

---*~``--Kiss me, and you may see stars. Love me, and I will give them to you.--``~*---

A heart is like glass, dropped once, broken forever, and even if the pieces finally get put back together it will never be the same.

Your heart decides who it likes and who it doesnt. You cant tell your heart what to do. It does it on its own when you least expect it, or even if you dont want it to. It loves who it wants to and theres nothing you can do about it.

So smooth and so smart he's abducted my heart and i'm falling apart from the looks i recieve from those eyes i can't leave well you can say i'm naive but he told me to believe...

i still recall the taste of your tears echoing your voice just like the ringing in my ears my favorite dreams of you still wash ashore scraping through my head 'till I don't want to sleep anymore

"i want to hang onto something that wont break away or fall apart like the pieces of my heart" - something corporate
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bored as usual [Mar. 24th, 2005|02:17 am]
[Current Mood |boredbored]

In your eyes, people can't seem to see anything
because your eyes are covered up by tears! You
are constantly hurt and depressed... No one
seems to understand how you feel because
everyone is scared to get close to you... You
long to be able to reach out and tell someone
everything, and all of your problems... But you
have no one to tell, or they just don't seem to
want to hear what you have to say. You've been
hurt many times that you don't seem to have any
tears left to shed, or if you do, they're an
endless river flowing... You've started to hide
and bottle up all or your problems and
feelings, hoping that maybe they just will go
away... You want company, but at the same time,
you're scared of it. Your sanctuary is your
room where you can just be alone and try to
throw away all of your aching pains. You're
dark and mysterious and people like you for
that reason. Even if you think you're all by
yourself in the dark, someone is always there
with you. Your special someone wants to admit
and show their feelings towards you, but
they're afraid of how you'll take it. Get out
more and enjoy life because, it is far too long
to frown your way through :)

What Lies Behind Your Eyes?
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*Epitome of Perfection* [Mar. 23rd, 2005|04:45 am]
[Current Mood |awakeawake]

Thine eyes enchant me, capturing my very soul
with the brilliant light shining from within thy heart.
Thine eyes, two spark'ling pools of light from heaven,
tempt all who see them with their brilliant embers.
Thy voice enraptures me with it's sweet melody;
It banishes the darkness, turning night to day.
Gentle and deep, it soothes away my agony,
leaving me in ecstacy and longing for thee.
Thy graceful movements, like a bird soaring through time,
take my breath away, leave me aching for more.
The fluidity of thy dance awakens spring,
causing birds to sing and my spirit to rejoice.
My body trembles with longing for just one touch
from thy ever-so beautiful hands of power.
Just one moment in time is all I ask of thee.
My heart cries out for thee, my soul longs for thy love.
O! If only I could hold thee, kiss thy sweet lips,
My soul would fly to heaven knowing true beauty.
If only we were destined to be together.
I curse fate for keeping thy love away from me.
O! What joy I would feel within thy warm embrace.
I would give anything to have thee in my life.
Thou art my reason for life, my reason to live.
Thou art my love, heart, soul, and every desire.
Without thee, I would be nothing, an empty shell.
With thee, I would bloom into a brilliant flower,
growing more beautiful with every passing day.
Please, I beg of thee, love me and let me love thee.
Do not let this love I hold disappear tonight.
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Head Over Feet~Alanis Morissette [Mar. 21st, 2005|11:35 pm]
[Current Mood |anxiousanxious]

I had no choice but to hear you
You stated your case time and again
I thought about it

You treat me like I'm a princess
I'm not used to liking that
You ask how my day was

You've already won me over in spite of me
Don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet
Don't be surprised if I love you for all that you are
I couldn't help it
It's all your fault

Your love is thick and it swallowed me whole
You're so much braver than I gave you credit for
That's not lip service

You've already won me over in spite of me
Don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet
Don't be surprised if I love you for all that you are
I couldn't help it
It's all your fault

You are the bearer of unconditional things
You held your breath and the door for me
Thanks for your patience

You're the best listener that I've ever met
You're my best friend
Best friend with benefits
What took me so long

I've never felt this healthy before
I've never wanted something rational
I am aware now
I am aware now

You've already won me over in spite of me
Don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet
Don't be surprised if I love you for all that you are
I couldn't help it
It's all your fault
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Boredom at 4:30 am [Mar. 18th, 2005|04:23 am]
[Current Mood |boredbored]

you are midnightblue

Your dominant hue is blue, making you a good friend who people love and trust. You're good in social situations and want to fit in. Just be careful not to compromise who you are to make them happy.

Your saturation level is higher than average - You know what you want, but sometimes know not to tell everyone. You value accomplishments and know you can get the job done, so don't be afraid to run out and make things happen.

Your outlook on life is slightly darker than most people's. You try to see things for what they are and face situations honestly. You'd rather get to the point than look for what's good.
the spacefem.com html color quiz
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MmMmMmMmMm [Mar. 17th, 2005|05:20 am]
[Current Mood |boredbored]


You Are A Juicy Kisser!

About Your Kissing Style:

Your lips are totally kissable baby, and you know how to use them.

You are the perfect - with the right combo of lips and tongue.

It's important to flaunt it, so kiss early and often on dates!

What Your Kissing Style Says About You:

You're 100% hot, and you know it. You're all about being sexy, all the time.

You have no trouble scoring dates or kisses ...

Just trouble getting rid of jealous people trying to show you up!

You attract attention from every hot guy and girl... even before you show off your kissing skills.

Your Personal Kissing Matches and Mismatches:

Go out with another Juicy Kisser and you'll be the power couple of the party. Sure, you'll have a ton of
hot kisses, but only after everyone there has checked you guys out. Hook it up with a
Romantic Kisser and you may have found your soulmate.
Romantic Kissers will be attracted to your appeal, and you'll appreciate their loyalty.

Keep away from Carnal Kissers! They'll just try to play you for sex, and
ruin your reputation in a heartbeat. And Freaky Kissers are way too wild and
rough for your style. You prefer pleasure to pain, thank you very much.

How Do *You* Kiss?

More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva
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