I can't believe it. My freind Carey Marren comited suicide. Ya know it hurts. He was such a nice guy, always willing to help. But he was different and people in my f***ed up town made fun of him and put him down. He was such a good person, why must all the good people die. I know how he feels though. He and I were alot alike in that aspect of our lives. When I was in High School, I had to put up with the same bullshit. I myself attempted to kill myself. I never saw the people who cared about me, the pain of not really belonging anywhere kept me from seeing the people who loved me. I guess it was the same for him. It really hurts to lose someone you care about. He was such a good friend. I'm hoping that he is in a better place. I am so glad that we got in touch again. At least I know that I wasn't one of the people who forced his hand. I just wish I had known so I could have helped him, I wish I had been able to be there for him, the way no one was ever there for me.